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salt & light

2006-07-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. (Matthew 5:13-16)

though i feel like i'm losing my saltiness, i will not give up being salt and light.

Take My Hand

2006-04-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

sad day to begin with..
still in the midst of reconciliation with the truth..
and it hurts right to the bones..
when someone called out to me..

Take My Hand
"I know there are times
your dreams turn to dust
you wonder as you cry
why it has to hurt so much
give Me all your sadness
someday you will know the reason wy
with a child-like heart
simply put your trust in Me

Don't live in the past
cause yesterday's gone
wishing memories would last
you're afraid to carry on
you don't know what's comin'
but you know the one who holds tomorrow
I will be your guide
take you through the night
if you keep your eyes on Me

Take my hand and walk where I lead
Keep your eyes on me alone
don't you say why were the old days better
just because you're afraid of the unknown
take my hand and walk where I lead
you will never be alone
faith is to be sure of what you hope for
and the evidence of things unseen
so take my hand and walk

Just like a child
holdings daddy's hand
don't let go of mine
you know you can't stand
on your own"

God called out ot me to take His hand and walk..
amazingly, a friend just let me hear this song out of the hundreds and hundreds of songs in her ipod..
not a coincidence. not a chance.
but a divine appointment.

God is Good!

2005-05-21T01:26:00.000+08:00

i've to admit i'm a lousy blogger..
i keep procrastinating that when i want to blog.. i simply forget what to write... coz got too many stuffs to write also..

well..
but through it all.. i would say that God is Good!
will try to summerise it one of these days lar.. :)

indeed..
the JOY of the LOrd is so wonderful..

singing in the rain..

2005-04-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

do i actually mean what i sing?
do i actually know what i am singing?

2 questions which struck me only recently.. when i faced the earthquakes and tsunamis of life..

"when the oceans rise and thunders roar.. i will soar with You above the storms.. Father You are king over the flood.. i will be still know You are near.."

".. when my world cave in around me.. to You i still hold on.."

simple words.. easily sang out of anyone's mouth.. but when faced with the storms of life.. down in the depths of my heart.. can these words be sang? no..

"when my world cave in around me.. to You i still hold on.." i see people singing it so joyfully to the catchy tune.. do they mean what they are singing? well i guess they mean it in times where they are not facing any problems.. but when the worse of worst hit them straight in the face.. can they still sing it?

"when the oceans rise and thunders roar.. i will soar with You above the storms.." another lovely song.. but when the winds blow hard and the waves crashed in.. battered in the middle of the storm.. and i seem to be sinking and sinking.. i rather sink with You.. than to soar above the storms..

its not easy to grapple with words.. but by the grace of God.. when my world cave in around me.. to God i still hold on.. when the oceans rise and thunders roar.. i will sink with God through the storm.. (its safer in a submarine thru a storm than in the sky in think.. haha.. )

revival of the call..

2005-04-15T03:41:00.000+08:00

Dillon's passion and compassion reminds me of a passion and compassion i once had.. this passion and compassion was translated into a song.. which i wrote with God.. telling him my heart's desire..

Here am I, Use me today
Verse 1:
Lord i come to You..
With the burdens of this world..
Wounded hearts and broken lives..
You have yet to heal

Lord i have compassion..
For this world that was lost..
Let me be the one to bring..
Your love to them today..

Chorus 1:
Here am i Lord.. Use me now..
Here am i waiting for Your calling..
Here am i Lord ready to do Your will..
Here am i.. Use me today..

Verse 2:
I'll be the light..
That shines for You my Lord..
Like the lighthouse in the sea..
That shines in the darkness..

I'll be the one..
That will stand in the gap..
I'll go the distance for You..
To the ends of the earth today..

Chorus 2:
Use me Lord.. i'll make myself avail..
Use me Lord.. i'll hear and obey..
Use me Lord to do Your will
Use me Lord.. this is what i pray..

Lord send Your child..
To the place You want to..
Let me be part of..
Your perfect plan..

You see my heart..
You hear my cries..
I will obey Your word..
You say "Go!" and i'll go today..

Chorus:
Here am i Lord.. Use me now..
Here am i waiting for Your calling..
Here am i Lord ready to do Your will..
Here am i.. Use me today..
Use me Lord.. i'll make myself avail..
Use me Lord.. i'll hear and obey..
Use me Lord to do Your will..
Use me Lord.. this is what i pray..

Here am I.. Use me today..
Use me Lord.. This is what i pray..

the revival of this song reminds me of the call to missions and evangelism.. does the lyrics reflects my heart's desire.. or are they juz mere words which have empty meanings..

recorded this song and passed it to Dillon.. some of his church friends happen to be there.. and was kinda forced to sing "live".. was afraid but sang eventually.. sang it to God.. was really encouraged that the song ministered to them.. was affirmed once again to the call..

may this song minister to those who reads my blog..
may this be your desire too..

rekindling..

2005-04-15T03:22:00.000+08:00

actually.. my blog is kinda lagged.. too many things.. too little time.. so i can keep it as updated as i want it to be..

sometime ago a wonderful brother in Christ entered my life.. Dillon.. sent by God to keep me going and encouraged in my spiritual walk with Him..

Dillon is the most passionate christian i've ever known.. his compassion for the people around him really touches me.. his desire to set himself apart for God can put angels to shame.. and God being his motivation behind the things that he does really encourages me.. the list goes on and on and on and on and on..

as much as he says how much i've encouraged him.. he never know how much greater he has encouraged me.. his passion and compassion kinda rekindled something within me.. a passion for God and compassion for people..

surrendering a 'failing' ministry..

2005-03-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

sometimes i cant help but to feel that the failing ministry of Eusoff Hall is my fault.. due to my incompetence.. and questions came flooding to my mind..

"Does God really look for availability and not ability?"
"See what i've done to it?"
"Did i hear God wrongly?"
"Am i a lousy leader?"
"Am i not doing enough?"
"Maybe someone else fit this role better?"

this journey is not an easy one..
its like threading in the valley..
though along the way..
i've been encouraged time and time again..

today i receive a sms..
"Dun worry about e vcf in hall. If God wants to restore, he will bring Ppl. Just keep praying n persevering in your faith. Dun lose heart!" (word for word.. hahaa.. )

another timely reminder..
many times i find not looking at God..
taking ownership of the ministry does not make the ministry mine..
a failing ministry is in men's eyes..
i've learn alot from ECF..
hope my lessons from God will not cost ECF its death..
but God's maths is better than mine..
i'm sure He count better than me rite.. :)

like Ethan in the musical..
i must learn to surrender..
to surrender the ministry to God..

Falling Spinning..

2005-03-24T01:23:00.000+08:00

WOW!

its such a wonderful musical.. the band is one of the best i've ever heard.. the lyrics and music is so cool and original.. the cast and crew did a marvelous job in bringing out the story.. a story close to every student's heart.. the struggles we face.. and of course not missing our frequent visit to broken heart cafe..

but beyond the musical.. a timely reminder.. and a sweet encouragement.. an AWESOME GOD!!

a timely reminder of how i'm visiting broken heart cafe so frequently.. a timely reminder of i've been walking broken.. a timely reminder that i'm chasing the wind.. a timely reminder that i'm over-committed and stretched so thinly by so many stuffs.. a timely reminder how my life is spinning and spinning.. a timely reminder of all the perhaps i have.. a timely reminder of there is something more to life.. a timely reminder that there's something called forever.. a timely reminder to Fall into the arms of God..

and to all these timely reminders.. a sweet encouragement comes when i know that God is there.. not only God is there.. GOD IS AWESOME!!!

perfect music with a broken harpsichord..

2005-03-22T03:23:00.000+08:00

beethoven was almost deaf when he composed the famous 5th symphony.. such a wonderful piece of music.. being such a wonderful musician.. beethoven do not need ears to hear.. one day he was found playing on a old broken harpsichord (ancient piano).. it was terribly out of tune.. beethoven started playing it.. it sounded terrible to his neighbours.. but to him.. its the most perfect music as he listens with his heart..

Dr Freddy boey told us this story juz last sat.. he linked the parallel that we are like broken harpsichords.. our life can reflect the lousy music being played.. but to God.. He still chooses to use us to make perfect music to His ears..

sounds far-fetched.. but how true..

how great thou art

2005-03-22T03:11:00.000+08:00

these few weeks has really been tough.. its like my life being put into a washing machine.. spinning and spinning and spinning..

but thru the midst of falling and spinning.. God was there..

God remained faithful when i was unfaithful..
though QT is non-existence for some time.. but God still let me hear His voice..
i sinned.. but yet He did not cast me away from His presence..

these few weeks.. He taught be really a lot.. especially from the services.. Dr Freddy Boey is a good speaker.. no doubt.. but the Holy Spirit is the one that opened my heart to hear the truth..

i stand amazed at the wonder of His love..
even today as i studied about cell biology.. and how the cells interact and move.. i marvelled at creation..

indeed..
HOW GREAT THOU ART!!

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood..

2005-03-01T01:17:00.000+08:00

After that holy encounter with God.. there's a new yearning in my heart to live a live of Godliness, holiness and purity.. and also a new found desire to read the word of God.. indeed the filling of the Holy Spirit is so powerful.. never had i experienced such great power and transformation before..

despite these wonderful things happening in my life.. i also faced many tsunamis in life.. i begin to face with new and greater temptations that can cause me to fall into sin.. i face times where my priorities were challenged against God.. i face disappointments.. i face greater irritations.. i face hurts.. i realise that its can become quite a struggle..

a struggle for?

"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the power fo this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Ephesians 6:24

indeed our struggle is not against flesh and blood.. but against Satan & Co.. its definitely a hard struggle to fight.. but God gave us the Armour of God to wear so that we can take our stand against the devil's schemes!!

these few days have been a wonderful struggle.. i witness strongholds being tear down.. chains being broken.. losing battles won.. a time of sanctification and purification.. a time of renewal and revival..

i know the days ahead will not be easy.. it will still be a struggle against the devil's schemes.. it might get tougher day by day.. or i might even fall and sin.. but remember what Paul told the church of Ephesus - to stand firm in the Lord and the power of His might!!

the beauty of holiness..

2005-02-27T02:04:00.000+08:00

last thurs i missed cell at cheryl's house coz i have gotta 2 VCF meeting to attend to.. before that i was quite sad that i'm not able to make it for cell.. but then after my meetings.. i never regret not going for it.. there was a very special encounter with God that very evening.. gathered in the midst of christian students who share the same passion for student ministry.. it's really uplifing and encouraging.. though everyone of us is facing similar struggles.. we shared and prayed..

in the midst of the meeting.. i felt the presence of God.. the HOLY presence of God.. this encounter with the presence of God is really different from the other times.. this time God seems to be like right beside me and suddenly increase in concentration!!

when i say HOLY presence of God.. i really mean HOLY!! the HOLY presence is so HOLY that i can't describe it with words.. it juz made me feel so unholy yet not condemned or unworthy.. i was so drawn to this holiness.. so holy that it draws me towards God..

this HOLY encounter with God seems to have started a hunger for holiness and purity in my life..

indeed the beauty of holiness brings worship anew.. a life of worship in holiness and purity..

low spiritual connectivity..

2005-02-23T19:47:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i had my last entry.. almost 2 months.. its been a period of up and down for me.. its not a tough period.. juz that its the routine downs inlife that every christian face..

it could also be a sign of low spiritual connectivity.. hence got nothing really special to write about.. hope i can get out of this valley in life.. and once again be a light that shines for God..

Sweet Dream?

2004-12-31T11:10:00.000+08:00

heard a wonderful testimony yesterday.. of how God brought a friend out of spiritual bondages.. Hallelujah! All Praise and Glory be to God!

this reminded me of how i use to have nightmares last time.. it's most probably due to the 'self-made' oijia board which my maid use to make me and my bro play together.. testing the spirits of the spiritual realm.. for nights i'll have nightmares.. i'll fall off my double-decker bed (i was sleeping on top).. as a quiet little boy.. i did not tell anyone.. for nights i suffered in silence and terror.. as the dreams seems so real but cant really recall what i dream about now..

i do not know why.. but one night.. i remember my sunday school teacher use to tell us bout Jesus and God.. i came to Jesus in prayer.. that night.. there was peace.. quietness.. no horrible nightmares.. there was 2 bright lights.. looking closer.. they look like angels.. not what we imagine it to be like.. but like how the Bible described it.. with 6 wings.. one was sitting beside my bed.. while the other was flying over me.. i really do not know if i was reality or was it a dream.. but from that night onwards.. i've got no more nightmares.. the scene of the angels is protecting me is still so fresh in my head..

Hallelujah! no words could express my praise!

Unspeakable Joy..

2004-12-28T02:35:00.000+08:00

results are out.. i did quite badly.. like some people i see dark days coming.. for others.. in the midst of their dark days or coming to the end of their dark days.. dark days are inevitable for all.. everyone has dark days.. dark days of disappointment.. dark days of distress.. dark days of doubt.. dark days of depression..

so what do we do when we enter dark days?

about 2 weeks ago.. Pastor Joseph Ong talked about the Jesus being the Light of Christmas for dark days.. of how Jesus can dispel my darkness.. i somehow kinda knew that sermon was for me.. but knowing that Jesus can dispel my dark days in my mind is very different from knowing the truth 12 inches lower(heart)..

i know in my mind that Jesus will encourage me when i'm disappointed.. He will strengthen me when i'm distress.. He will guide me when i'm doubtful.. He will lift me when i'm depressed.. but what does it mean to know and believe in my heart? in my heart.. i trust that Jesus can do all that.. but i dont seem to believe that Jesus can do all that for me..

before i checked my results.. fear and uncertainty flew into my heart and mind.. i was afraid.. really afraid.. that i'm so hesitant to check my results.. flashes of incidents like how Jesus gave me peace during my exams.. comfort me when i'm down.. came flooding into my mind.. so i came before the Lord in prayer.. telling Him my fears and how i feel.. telling Him to help me commit my results to Him.. telling Him to help me praise and worship Him despite what my results are..

my results were really sucky.. i was sad and downcast.. now i've got a choice to wallow in self-pity and disappointment or to praise and worship God.. i chose the latter.. starting is hard.. but as i got about doing it.. joy and peace filled my spirit..

i begin to experience how Jesus encourages me when i'm disappointed and lifts me when i'm depressed.. its amazing.. words cannot express.. but if i were to express it.. its in 2 words.. UNSPEAKABLE JOY!!

3 Important Principles to live by..

2004-12-28T01:33:00.000+08:00

People are fragile..
They need to be loved & assured..
And know they possess value -
Handle them with care!

People are unique..
They want to feel different..
To stand up from the rest -
Credit them when due!

People are human..
They will commit mistakes..
And fail us sometimes -
Give them another chance!

Christmas present?

2004-12-23T20:38:00.000+08:00

This Christmas is slightly different for most NUS students.. Results are coming out during this period.. How are you feeling? Some of us would not want to look at our grades til after Christmas.. Some juz hope for a nice Christamas gift..

Came across this anonymous poem.. and it kinda make some sense to me.. whatever our grades are.. remember of God's grace.. and the reason of Christmas..

Grades Greatness or Grace
Man looks at our grades,
But God looks at our faith.
Though grades appeal to man,
God only requires the best.
The best may be "F" or "A",
But God says, "Be not dismayed",
For it is never a disgrace to fail,
However, its no grace if one does not prevail.

So cheer up my soul, study your best,
For God only demands what we have.
Be careful also my friend,
Good grades don't always mean success.
For doing well is not enough,
It's your BEST that really counts.
"But Lord, I know I cannot do my best"
Hallelujah! All is possible with prayer.

Be not anxious then,
Or panic in facing your exams.
For Christ who died save your soul,
Will never leave you alone.
Healthy, your soul will be,
If His faithfulness you see.
For then you will understand.
It's only He who had made you stand.

Therefore, arise my soul,
And let us all disappoint the Foe.
For we shall give our very best,
Let GOd take care of the rest.
So, no matter what the results may be,
We can always rest in His peace.
For GOd is able to give us all distinctions,
But this is clearly not His intention.

For God has made us all unique,
So that it's You and only You,
Can His perfect will be fulfilled.
GOd has always accepted you.
For He's the one who had created you.
So, do not compare or despair,
For in His sight you're always fair.
I know He will surely see you through,
Showing you He's the God of tomorrow too!

Let go and let God..

2004-12-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

remembered i wrote in my previous entry that although God knows what we are feeling.. He wants us to make it known to Him.. God knows the hurts that i've buried under my smiles and laughter.. hurts which i've hidden from everyone.. and that night God wanted to heal me of those hurts.. (the most eventful thing that happened to me at Anntic)

on the last night of Anntic.. i was in front.. waiting to be prayed for.. Dr David Harley came and sat beside me.. and i poured out the hurts (mainly from my previous broken relationship and my relationship with my dad soured because of my relationship) to him.. then he said something which shocked me, "you pray first then i'll pray.." i was thinking.. i'm here to be prayed for isn't it.. and i remembered what i wrote..

i kept quiet for some time.. i find it hard verbalise-telling God that these are my hurts and my shame and laying it beofre Jesus.. the digging out of my hurts brought painful moments and tears to my eyes.. i cried and wept.. i never realised that all these while i've let the hurts accumulate.. but after i made them known to God.. His gentle Spirit comforts me.. His love fills my heart.. He restores me.. slowly but surely!

on my shoulders i've been carrying burdens but yet i did not know.. i'm so used to carrying them that i thought i was not carrying any burdens.. that extra emotional baggages.. but when God starts to remove these baggages.. its only then i realise that i've been carrying them all these while!

As children bring their broken toyswith tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God,because he was my friend.
But then, instead of leaving himin peace, to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help,with ways that were my own.
At last, I snatched them back and cried,"How can you be so slow?"
"My child", he said "What could I do? you never did let go."

learning to let go and let God..
Alvin Child of God

Imagine me without You..

2004-12-04T02:16:00.000+08:00

Song of the night: Imagine me without You.. (by Jaci Velasquez)
sounds like a title for love song? you are right.. it's a love song for my saviour!

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

I can’t imagine me without you

I really cant imagine me without God.. i really cant.. this song really speaks of my heart.. its like she wrote this song for me.. :)

(the empty space above is filled with my heart.. for words cant express my feelings.. very little space.. but it contains infinite worth of emotions.. haha..)

brothers and sisters.. i do not know if some of you feel that God is so far away.. so distant.. i felt the same way as you do many many months ago.. my walk with God slowly drifted further and further away.. since i entered the army.. along the way.. i have sinned.. i did things that i never even thought i'll do.. i felt crushed and too ashamed to go back to God.. though my heart yearns for God..

this year in july.. i went for my church's young adults retreat.. and my our leader was sharing with us bout being careful for what we pray for.. e.g if we ask God for boldness.. God will allow circumstances to make us bold.. i came to the Lord and asked God to bring me back to Him.. during the retreat we also have a time alone with God.. and we were to pen down what we want to do and achieve in the next half year.. sealed in an envelope and out church leader will mail it to us end of the year.. its coming.. and i'm so excited.. i cant remember all the things that i've written.. but i know that some of it has already been fulfilled.. indeed.. He answered my prayer.. throughout my life.. i've never felt God so real.. so real..

i do not know the formula nor have the map to bring you back to God.. but if its your hearts desire to come back to God.. go tell our Lord.. He knows your heart and i believe that He wants us to make it known to Him.. pour out your heart and soul to Him.. and see the great and mighty things that God can do.. beyond our expectations and imagination!!

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven"
Alvin, precious child of God

Peace.. oh what peace..

2004-12-04T01:33:00.000+08:00

Met tabby (tabitha) some time ago in arts canteen.. asked her how she did for her paper.. she said she did not do very well.. but she felt peace.. peace from God for she knew she commited her paper to God.. i replied.. i understand.. but do i really understand?

i never did.. til it happened..

30 Nov 2004.. i was studying for my LSM2101 paper.. i slept at 3 and woke up at 630 to continue studying.. i was worried of not doing well.. remembering God's reminder few days back.. i somehow felt the urge to play this song "through it all".. another Godly reminder i think.. as the song played.. i meditated on the lyrics.. and lifted my hands in praise and worship..

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

indeed God reminded me how He's actually with me and seeing me through the seasons of my life.. the ups.. the down.. the flats.. the bumpy.. His faithfulness and everlasting love carried me through it all.. i was reminded to look and wait upon Him.. and i sang the chorus with all my heart..

brought my discman to listen on the way for the paper.. and its on repeat mode.. so the song juz continue to play.. i did a little last minute read up and bout 850.. i juz went to the Lord in prayer.. telling Him how much i feared not to do well.. as i've got other lousy papers.. and how i need to pull up my CAP to do UROPS.. and poured out my heart and soul to Him.. Peace.. REAL peace.. which the world could not understand seems to descend down from heaven and rested upon me.. flowing in from my ears to my whole body.. though my heart beat rised a little.. but its not a sign that i dont feel peace.. the song seems to be singing in my blood.. i opened my eyes and saw that people are streaming in already.. i thought i'll be the last one.. for my conversation with God seems so long.. its amazing how God can transcend time! so i got up and walked into the hall.. during the paper.. i was in a cheerful mood.. 'bouncing' on my chair with the song still playing in my blood.. its one of the most wonderful exam i ever took.. it ended.. 2 question i cant really do.. some mistakes here and there.. but when i stepped out of the exam hall.. i knew that it's only then i understand how tabby feels bout committing the paper to God and feeling the peace..

similarly.. for the paper the next day.. i commited the paper to God.. and though i finish the questions which i think i know in 30 minutes.. i felt peace.. and also the grace of God.. How i can remember some stuff despite being a naughty little boy who skipped lectures.. (~shakes head. haha.. )

GOD IS SO SO SO SO GOOD!!!

Joy of encouraging is so encouraging!

2004-11-28T13:07:00.000+08:00

have u ever felt that kinda joy and happiness when you know you've made an impact in someone's life? its really encouraging and that feeling has been lingering for a few days already.. ;)

was chatting with jon (a good bro of mine whom i met in 41 SAR) over msn.. then we chatted bout me wondering if my BLOG encourages anyone.. and assurance came.. few days back jon sent his friend my BLOG as she's going thru some tough times.. then jon told me that she was really encouraged and changed her msn nick to "been leaning on the wrong wall.. now i remember.." it may juz be a small remark regarding my ending phrase of the previous blog.. but knowing that i've encouraged someone really made me glad..

on the topic on encouragement..
i can't help but to say or rather shout it out that "The Lord is Good!!!"
throughout this sem.. i've been struggling with my studies and ECF (Eusoff Christian Fellowship) stuff.. many times.. i've been discouraged by circumstances.. worries.. studies.. people.. self-expectations and even myself.. but God did not let me fall.. His divine encouragements are always so timely! i did not fall to the extent that i gotta be picked up.. its like that kinda 'miss a step' thingy.. but then some hero came along and hold you.. and you regain your balance and back on your 2 feet.. when i think back.. i'm amazed at how God is so good..
GOD IS GOOD!

encourage and be encouraged..
alvin, child of God..

Where is God in the midst of your exams?

2004-11-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

After a tough paper.. coming out of the exam hall downcast.. felt like the weight of the world upon the tiny shoulders of mine.. the paper seemed harder for me than anyone else.. came back to my room.. turned on my lappy.. opened my fridge.. thinking of what to do to destress or ease the tension building up within.... changed into my running gear.. put on my shoes.. and there i went for a spin.. came back watched a little TV shows on NUS cast.. that's how i relief the stress..

today.. a friend came back form his paper.. prob feeling the way i felt.. then he said.. i need music.. as a music person.. he turns to music for solace.. well i replied 'i have music'.. and he said 'not your kind of music'.. i was thinking.. what's wrong with my music.. its mostly praise and worship songs.. nothing particularly wrong.. you may think that hurt me.. but it did not.. someone else hurt even greater..

Today i was reminded (God speakes!).. He, the creator of the heavens and the earth, of you and of me, was the one that was hurt.. He created us and yet we did not turn to Him for solace.. we seek other forms of de-stress methods than to come before the feet of our very own maker! where is God in your life when you are down? God is always there.. waiting for us to reach out to Him.. yet we simply choose to go our very own way.. and that breaks His heart.. His love, His comfort, His solace far exceeds what running my lungs out or listening to great music can give!

Tomorrow.. u can choose to still go your own way.. or to come before God in worship and praise despite a tough paper.. come before him with your sorrows, ur burdens and stresses.. and see what He (Beautiful Loving Omnipotent God) can do!

if you need to lean on something..
choose something that can withstand more than your weight..
leaning on God,
alvin
(despite a terrible stomache)

BLOG : Beautiful Loving Omnipotent God

2004-11-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

A few days back i've decided to have a BLOG on my personal life.. and this BLOG which is created under "silence by Your love" will be for testimonies, Godly sharing and good christian literature! i'm not trying to be schizophrenic or a hypocrite.. Juz that i wanna dedicate a site solely for God's glory and not stained by my SINS!!!

child of God,
alvin