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Thursday, July 13, 2006

salt & light

"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. (Matthew 5:13-16)

though i feel like i'm losing my saltiness, i will not give up being salt and light.

Friday, April 28, 2006

Take My Hand

sad day to begin with..
still in the midst of reconciliation with the truth..
and it hurts right to the bones..
when someone called out to me..

Take My Hand

"I know there are times
your dreams turn to dust
you wonder as you cry
why it has to hurt so much
give Me all your sadness
someday you will know the reason wy
with a child-like heart
simply put your trust in Me

Don't live in the past
cause yesterday's gone
wishing memories would last
you're afraid to carry on
you don't know what's comin'
but you know the one who holds tomorrow
I will be your guide
take you through the night
if you keep your eyes on Me

Take my hand and walk where I lead
Keep your eyes on me alone
don't you say why were the old days better
just because you're afraid of the unknown
take my hand and walk where I lead

you will never be alone
faith is to be sure of what you hope for
and the evidence of things unseen
so take my hand and walk

Just like a child
holdings daddy's hand
don't let go of mine
you know you can't stand
on your own"

God called out ot me to take His hand and walk..
amazingly, a friend just let me hear this song out of the hundreds and hundreds of songs in her ipod..
not a coincidence. not a chance.
but a divine appointment.

Saturday, May 21, 2005

God is Good!

i've to admit i'm a lousy blogger..
i keep procrastinating that when i want to blog.. i simply forget what to write... coz got too many stuffs to write also..

but through it all.. i would say that God is Good!
will try to summerise it one of these days lar.. :)

the JOY of the LOrd is so wonderful..

Monday, April 25, 2005

singing in the rain..

do i actually mean what i sing?
do i actually know what i am singing?

2 questions which struck me only recently.. when i faced the earthquakes and tsunamis of life..

"when the oceans rise and thunders roar.. i will soar with You above the storms.. Father You are king over the flood.. i will be still know You are near.."

".. when my world cave in around me.. to You i still hold on.."

simple words.. easily sang out of anyone's mouth.. but when faced with the storms of life.. down in the depths of my heart.. can these words be sang? no..

"when my world cave in around me.. to You i still hold on.." i see people singing it so joyfully to the catchy tune.. do they mean what they are singing? well i guess they mean it in times where they are not facing any problems.. but when the worse of worst hit them straight in the face.. can they still sing it?

"when the oceans rise and thunders roar.. i will soar with You above the storms.." another lovely song.. but when the winds blow hard and the waves crashed in.. battered in the middle of the storm.. and i seem to be sinking and sinking.. i rather sink with You.. than to soar above the storms..

its not easy to grapple with words.. but by the grace of God.. when my world cave in around me.. to God i still hold on.. when the oceans rise and thunders roar.. i will sink with God through the storm.. (its safer in a submarine thru a storm than in the sky in think.. haha.. )

Friday, April 15, 2005

revival of the call..

Dillon's passion and compassion reminds me of a passion and compassion i once had.. this passion and compassion was translated into a song.. which i wrote with God.. telling him my heart's desire..

Here am I, Use me today
Verse 1:
Lord i come to You..
With the burdens of this world..
Wounded hearts and broken lives..
You have yet to heal

Lord i have compassion..
For this world that was lost..
Let me be the one to bring..
Your love to them today..

Chorus 1:
Here am i Lord.. Use me now..
Here am i waiting for Your calling..
Here am i Lord ready to do Your will..
Here am i.. Use me today..

Verse 2:
I'll be the light..
That shines for You my Lord..
Like the lighthouse in the sea..
That shines in the darkness..

I'll be the one..
That will stand in the gap..
I'll go the distance for You..
To the ends of the earth today..

Chorus 2:
Use me Lord.. i'll make myself avail..
Use me Lord.. i'll hear and obey..
Use me Lord to do Your will
Use me Lord.. this is what i pray..

Lord send Your child..
To the place You want to..
Let me be part of..
Your perfect plan..

You see my heart..
You hear my cries..
I will obey Your word..
You say "Go!" and i'll go today..

Here am i Lord.. Use me now..
Here am i waiting for Your calling..
Here am i Lord ready to do Your will..
Here am i.. Use me today..

Use me Lord.. i'll make myself avail..
Use me Lord.. i'll hear and obey..
Use me Lord to do Your will..
Use me Lord.. this is what i pray..

Here am I.. Use me today..
Use me Lord.. This is what i pray..

the revival of this song reminds me of the call to missions and evangelism.. does the lyrics reflects my heart's desire.. or are they juz mere words which have empty meanings..

recorded this song and passed it to Dillon.. some of his church friends happen to be there.. and was kinda forced to sing "live".. was afraid but sang eventually.. sang it to God.. was really encouraged that the song ministered to them.. was affirmed once again to the call..

may this song minister to those who reads my blog..
may this be your desire too..


actually.. my blog is kinda lagged.. too many things.. too little time.. so i can keep it as updated as i want it to be..

sometime ago a wonderful brother in Christ entered my life.. Dillon.. sent by God to keep me going and encouraged in my spiritual walk with Him..

Dillon is the most passionate christian i've ever known.. his compassion for the people around him really touches me.. his desire to set himself apart for God can put angels to shame.. and God being his motivation behind the things that he does really encourages me.. the list goes on and on and on and on and on..

as much as he says how much i've encouraged him.. he never know how much greater he has encouraged me.. his passion and compassion kinda rekindled something within me.. a passion for God and compassion for people..

Thursday, March 24, 2005

surrendering a 'failing' ministry..

sometimes i cant help but to feel that the failing ministry of Eusoff Hall is my fault.. due to my incompetence.. and questions came flooding to my mind..

"Does God really look for availability and not ability?"
"See what i've done to it?"
"Did i hear God wrongly?"
"Am i a lousy leader?"
"Am i not doing enough?"
"Maybe someone else fit this role better?"

this journey is not an easy one..
its like threading in the valley..
though along the way..
i've been encouraged time and time again..

today i receive a sms..
"Dun worry about e vcf in hall. If God wants to restore, he will bring Ppl. Just keep praying n persevering in your faith. Dun lose heart!" (word for word.. hahaa.. )

another timely reminder..
many times i find not looking at God..
taking ownership of the ministry does not make the ministry mine..
a failing ministry is in men's eyes..
i've learn alot from ECF..
hope my lessons from God will not cost ECF its death..
but God's maths is better than mine..
i'm sure He count better than me rite.. :)

like Ethan in the musical..
i must learn to surrender..
to surrender the ministry to God..

Falling Spinning..


its such a wonderful musical.. the band is one of the best i've ever heard.. the lyrics and music is so cool and original.. the cast and crew did a marvelous job in bringing out the story.. a story close to every student's heart.. the struggles we face.. and of course not missing our frequent visit to broken heart cafe..

but beyond the musical.. a timely reminder.. and a sweet encouragement.. an AWESOME GOD!!

a timely reminder of how i'm visiting broken heart cafe so frequently.. a timely reminder of i've been walking broken.. a timely reminder that i'm chasing the wind.. a timely reminder that i'm over-committed and stretched so thinly by so many stuffs.. a timely reminder how my life is spinning and spinning.. a timely reminder of all the perhaps i have.. a timely reminder of there is something more to life.. a timely reminder that there's something called forever.. a timely reminder to Fall into the arms of God..

and to all these timely reminders.. a sweet encouragement comes when i know that God is there.. not only God is there.. GOD IS AWESOME!!!

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

perfect music with a broken harpsichord..

beethoven was almost deaf when he composed the famous 5th symphony.. such a wonderful piece of music.. being such a wonderful musician.. beethoven do not need ears to hear.. one day he was found playing on a old broken harpsichord (ancient piano).. it was terribly out of tune.. beethoven started playing it.. it sounded terrible to his neighbours.. but to him.. its the most perfect music as he listens with his heart..

Dr Freddy boey told us this story juz last sat.. he linked the parallel that we are like broken harpsichords.. our life can reflect the lousy music being played.. but to God.. He still chooses to use us to make perfect music to His ears..

sounds far-fetched.. but how true..

how great thou art

these few weeks has really been tough.. its like my life being put into a washing machine.. spinning and spinning and spinning..

but thru the midst of falling and spinning.. God was there..

God remained faithful when i was unfaithful..
though QT is non-existence for some time.. but God still let me hear His voice..
i sinned.. but yet He did not cast me away from His presence..

these few weeks.. He taught be really a lot.. especially from the services.. Dr Freddy Boey is a good speaker.. no doubt.. but the Holy Spirit is the one that opened my heart to hear the truth..

i stand amazed at the wonder of His love..
even today as i studied about cell biology.. and how the cells interact and move.. i marvelled at creation..